Steep Slopes

One step forward,
Two steps back.

I found these shoes in 2007, in Chapel Street Melbourne. There were only three pairs made when initially purchased these, so I expected to pay quite a huge price tag, resulting in me staying in the hotel whilst my friends would enjoy their gourmet dinners. I was gobsmacked when I found these shoes, but never had much of a chance to wear them to many places due to the style of that time. Now that wedges have bombarded the fashion market i wear them everywhere. If you like the design, check out the designer, Tristian Blair @ http://www.tristanblair.com

Guess this shows the trend forecaster in me

Goodnight Manila, Goodmorning reality...

Hi,

Sorry for not keeping you all in the loop about my whereabouts and what is going on. A wild transition has happened to me since i have last posted anything. I know that is no excuse if i want to maintain a blog, so i will try my very best to be consistent with my thoughts, ideals and experiences.

In July 2010 I packed up and left what was known as "home" for a good solid 2 years. Manila, I miss you dearly. The passion, excitement, exuberance of life, vivid memories, the impromptu evening escapades leaving your heart beating hundreds of miles an hour. This will not be forgotten. I managed to "grow up" in what i conclude to be such a short span of time. Manila, i conquered to discover who i could be, defining a culture for myself that I was sheltered from as growing up. I arrived with preconceptions that were bitter and naive. In the end I sit here in Sydney and feel as though I have been removed from my environment, my dwellings, the familiar faces that pass by from day to day. I was extremely lucky to be blessed with the most beautiful friends who I could honour and trust. They helped me escape from initial solitude. When I felt isolated and as though I was the outsider, my anger reverted from disillusion to lust. My Western values of feeling superior were diminished greatly, but subconsciously ignited in slight gestures and comments. I apologise for that immensely, I have learnt that negativity will not save you from a situation you can not conform to. If you persist, and pull yourself out, away from that mind frame, you will find life's simple pleasures can be 100% satisfactory.

Longing for Sydney's reality, making myself useful (I guess by working and having responsibilities) was always in the back of my mind. This is because i like contributing, It has always been hard for me to sit down and relax, whilst my mind being at ease.In Manila, not having to worry about money, school, food, entertainment etc was a luxury. HEY! I admit I was living the life of a princess, indeed. We all were. A carefree life is great, for a while... then it makes you question yourself, you begin to think as though you are useless and all you do is party, shop and spend money. But its not actually this, you have just immersed in to a culture. This culture; always happy, outgoing, friendly, team spirited, love to be around friends and loved ones. Filipino's put their families first, if that means going to the end of the world to put their kids, nieces or nephews to school, then that will be the case. This is remotely different to what I had experienced, I was just put in to a private girls school, blinded by the value of education and just wanting to have a good time or jig as many days i could. Anyways I'm going off topic. Back to what I'm trying to say..

Manila is a state of euphoria, paradise, happiness, memories, friendship. A place I can always come back to and see new and interesting things, a place of change, hopefully one day it may become a developed place. This place prepared me for dreaming a goal, a goal that I found from my experiences over there.

Sydney is where I wake up and shape this goal in to the direction of where I ant to take it. Sydney holds my youth, my wellbeing, my family, my soldiers, thoughts, my heart (when he is around, otherwise USA, hehe)

Both are places where i wish i could be at once..both are places that give a great meaning to life

<3

High school memories

So highschool... That was a traumatic and overwhelming transition. It was uneasy and chaotic, especially have coming from a co-ed primary school and then entering an all girls catholic private school. Wow nightmare, so much bitchiness and competitive spririt at the beginning couple of years. But everyone eventually became placid and tried less hard to try and fit in or prove something of themselves. Groups we're segregated in to race. You either were in a leb, italian/wog, aussie, or asian group. As for me i didnt really fit in to any due to being mixed raced. But i never saw my friends as being a racial division. My real group of friends included Ashleigh, Ilaria, Jess, Waffe, Laura, Deanna and Danielle. We were a mixed group, full of our varied own values, intentions, morals, views and beliefs. This never interfered in our friendship. We all kept each other in line and we're there in times of struggle and need no matter what. Compared to the other girls in the barkada groups around us there was soo much internal and external bitching and backstabbing going about. It was nice to know I had girls who i could count on and call my sisters. Who held all my secrets and could keep their mouths shut. These girls were my inspiration, I counted on them in times of trouble and they would always be there no matter what. Until this day i am soo thankful they are in my life and even though we are miles away i know when i am back in Sydney we can all kick it as though i never left them. We supported each other through the HSC, studying everyday at Ilarias house or Campsie library with the boys...Each and every day was a challenged we helped one another and made sure each of us understood what we were doing before we entered each exam. Another person who brightened up my school days was Lucinda, always mucking around n making jokes n getting into troublee for always talking. I remember we would sneak out of school and drive to macca's or wherever just to chillax or what not. Man those were the days... innocence was bliss and we were such a close knit of friends. Even though it has been 2 years or so since then it feels like only yesterday we were in our kilts, rolling up our socks and using a cream ribbon in our hair. I miss my girls for they are the ones who i can always count on and the ones who truly understand me. I miss you all and i love u =) x

Impromptu...

So due to the accident girls being "grounded" aka maria n amanda... i knew the whole week that the weekend would be a quiet one staying at home. But wait for it... ofcourse there was an urge kicking them in the stomach... so come Saturday we were all craving for a party desperately... ok so i finally admit it.. I AM STILL A PARTY ANIMAL.. i dont know why but i just love the atmosphere and the music.. Im not there for guys i really couldnt give a fuck about them. I just love to go dancing with my girls..PERIOD. sooo did we end up going out??? or where did we go??? THATS A SECRET =) peace, love and ingats

Can I Have Your Number??

hahaha "you think a lot of men cant handle the regal-ness of an up do"
"own that pony tail, work that up do..."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jRbkkqZikx4

I know the video kinda lame but it cracks me up every single time =)

Happy Halloween 2009!

Mica= zombie ballerina, Lia= Vilma from scooby doo, Jackie= sailor chick and me

Hey peeps!!! happy halloweeen! hope u all had a good one =)
as for us here in Manila we partied it up in style at a humongous, open bar house party @ forbes!!!(crazy big ass house) shit it was hella FUN!!! hehehe but before that i was at Lia's house..n u noe d routine what goes on when im with her hehehe, I LOVE THAT GIRL TO DEATH...afterwards we left to Bureau at around 2am, continued partying it up, but it was sooo crowded like canned sardines...WOW n alot of YY people so kinda stinky haha... but yeh the musik was good n we were having soo much fun until Lia's phone got stolen (another bad event of the week...) so that ruined the mood..so ya kno the drill when something like that happens, ur turned off so u go home.. but that was fine..
if u want to check out the party and the costumes..hit up this site =) INGATZ xx
http://www.peaceloveandrevolution.com/blog/born-to-be-wild/

ingats (take care) everyone =)

So just wanted to see if everyone is OK? Unfortunately there have been soo man drastic events occur over the week. If you were affected by any bad shit I'm sorry to hear and I am thinking of you. In a nutshell, there was another typhoon in Manila, and 3 of my friends were in a car accident =(... so just be careful everyone its as though there is a bad aura in the air. There is not one person who i know who didnt have anything bad occur this week so hopefully the faze has passed... Be good, pray, turn to God...and INGATZZ!!!! x <3